又是一年除夕夜

 

好快又长大一岁

 

再过几个小时

 

就是我的本命年了

 

妈妈说本命年要穿红色

 

所以我现在从里到外拥有了很多很多的红色

 

人说本命年会比较倒霉

 

不过我也不知道

 

过去的一年

 

我收获了什么失去了什么

 

我是否快乐？

 

我不知道，我真的不知道

 

现在的我，只有一个感觉就是想哭

 

为什么呢？

 

我不知道

 

好像从几年前开始没，我就变成了一个越是热闹的时候越孤单

 

还是一样，会收到很多短信

 

有存号码的 没有存号码的

 

认识的不认识的

 

我似乎变得不是一个很热情的人了

 

是什么让我改变了呢

 

是什么让我变得无法享受快乐和喜庆的时刻

 

和朋友在一起的时候我总是让大家觉得我很开心

 

有时候，就是我自己也以为自己很开心

 

然而开心之后就不知道等待我的是什么了

 

狗年了

 

许自己一个开心的狗年

许家人一个健康的狗年

 

旺旺^_^

 

最近一直都没有上来写东西

 

也不是因为忙

 

就是不知道应该写一些什么

 

每天的主题都是吃

 

吃完了就睡觉

 

 

睡醒了就继续吃，然后上网寻找好吃的地方，称之为发现“新大餐”

 

我就是奇怪，为什么这个月我都已经做到除了睡猪圈，其他的行为都和猪没有区别了

 

身材却没有向猪迈进一步

 

我想有些人看了这个可能会想揍我

 

但是其实想增肥却没有办法实现其实比减肥还要痛苦

 

我的营养师说，如果要实现多长20斤肉的梦想，就要每天吃完正餐的同时强迫自己吃三顿spaghetti

 

猪是不是一天都要吃六顿啊

 

 

亲爱的朋友们，有没有更好的增肥办法

 

快要被我那可爱的营养师给折磨死了

 

救命啊！

 

 

今天见到了小学时候的结拜兄弟

 

老大问我是不是还记得他说过爱我

 

在12年之前

 

其实想想那个时候的自己

 

一来不漂亮二来不优秀

 

并没有想过会有男孩子说爱我

 

小时候我就很独立

 

除了和我结拜的3个兄弟

 

我从来没有让人了解真正的我

 

大哥和二哥是唯独的两个说过爱我的

 

所以我到现在一直记得

 

但是没有想到大哥也一样记得

 

尽管我们之间的关系从来没有跨越兄妹之情

 

但是，那年那月那时的事情还是让我铭记

 

是他们催促我前进

 

让我懂得如何面对困难如何正式自己

 

小学的时候是否有爱情呢？

 

我想应该没有

 

但是那样的记忆还是让我们彼此珍惜

 

现在说爱我的人们，是否能在12年之后依然记得？

 

世界在变，人在变

 

12年已然超越了当代爱情的极限，不是吗

好晚了，睡不着

 

到今天，我到墨尔本就三个月了

 

回想这三个月的岁月，有好多话、好多人要说

 

 

 

Peter Bling Bling——a man with blue hair

 

Peter is the first white guy i meet here

 

"Wenyan, can i ask u a question?"used to be his tag

 

he asked whether i'm gonna write his blue hair in my blog

 

i said maybe one day( yes it's now)

 

he is smart, handsome and not fat:)

but the most important thing is that he is honest

 

i did not know him for a long time

 

i remember once he asked me a really funny question

 

"Wenyan, can i ask u a question?"

"yes"

"am i supposed to give u a kiss on the cheek when we say goodbye?it is our culture"

"no, not for a chinese"

 

he understand it and respect the chinese culture

(which is nice)

 

because he is honest, i got to know he got a very complex past, which i may never totally understand

 

he seldom seems unhappy,and he always say "no worries"

 

but happy is a kind of heart status, not a kind of face status

 

i do hope that one day he will have a really happy heart, which the happy come out from the bottom of his heart

 

may God leading the way!

 

 

 

小岷——入学的时候作我旁边的四川男生

 

我不知道人们有没有想过，一生中，曾经有多少个人坐到过自己的身边，又有多少人成为匆匆过客

 

真正能够因为这样的“擦肩而过”而相识的人应该寥寥无几

 

所以我很珍惜这样的一个在异国的相识和相知

 

我想以后的很多年，我都不会忘记这个在异国他乡，

第一个亲自下厨给我做饭的男孩子

 

其实，因为大学最要好的朋友是四川人的缘故，

我对四川人的印象向来就很不错，加上这顿离家8000公里的午餐，

结论就只有:四川出好人了

 

小岷属于高高但不瘦瘦型的男生，我们有共同的爱好，就是吃，

不过我是怎么都持不胖的，他和我相反。 虽然事实上小岷并不算胖，

然而在我的映衬之下，他还是要减肥的 ^_^

 

因为不是同班的缘故，我们平时并没有太多的交流

但是他总是给我一种认识很久的感觉，像老朋友一样

 

他是第二个我最近一直在代祷的朋友，

 

前两天他参加了一个对他来说很重要的考试

 

虽然他表面上不说什么，但我知道他还是很在乎的

 

希望他一切顺利吧

 

 

 

 

 

 

charlie——lucky you！

 

lucky you 是Charlie的口头禅

因为同班的缘故，我们说的话似乎挺多的

 

他这个人最大的特点是反对信用卡

 

为什么？

他说如果有了女朋友，要是现金用完就好了，

要是用信用卡不就麻烦了？！

 

想不通这个是什么逻辑

 

charlie总是很语重心长地对我说：

文艳啊， 你现在身边同学都是男的，混久了是不是不会喜欢男生了啊

 

还是想不通这个是什么逻辑

 

刚刚写过一篇关于同性恋地文章，发现同性恋原来很大程度上是由基因决定的，

而我很不幸并没有那样的基因

 

我说charlie是一个为朋友两肋插刀的人

但是Charlie说自己是一个小学就开始约女孩子看电影的男生

 

哎，这年头的男孩子，太早熟了

 

 

 

我还想写好多好多人，Brian 、 张恒，不过现在一点半了，且听下回分解^_^

 

 

 

 

 

 

sometimes i really can not understand the people here!

 

Kiera, my pastor's wife invited me to dinner today.

 

She took me to max brendner, a place famous of chocalate

 

after we ordered she asked the girl in the shop, where was the ATM

 

i feel really bad, and it made me very embarrassing

 

u know, i would love to take the bill, if she didn't bring money

 

  

ask the people in the shop where is the atm after ordering sth is rude in my culture

 

maybe people here feel it is alright

 

i stop her from asking the girl for detials of the atm, and buy her the things she want

 

one thing i can not really understand is : that is not a cash only shop, i mean u can use cards, in this way why do people need to go to ATM for money?

 

i can not understand, will local people understand this?

 

even if the answer is yes, i will not accept it. i would be more than happy to pay the bill, buti will never accept ask where is the atm after ordering, it is terrible

 

is this a kind of culture difference?

 

 

she asked me so many questions when we were eating and she wanna me show her where is dockland

 

she did not ask whether i would like to do that or not

 

 

chinese people will feel bad to say no, so, even if i did not want to go to that place, i went to dockland with her. but, but, but, but

 

it is me, who am new in melbourne, not her,she is aussie, she lived here for at least  more than 5 years

 

but it is still ok, i am chinese, and my mum taught me that i have to be tolerance

 

i am not happy and i am not unhappy as well

still not too bad

 

on our way home, she found a tram and took it home

 

it was late at night,and i am new in melbourne, i can not find my way home

no one have ever done that to me, coz everyone knows that I would get lost, even back in my hometown in china, i have a very bad direction

 

it is not safe for a girl to walk around the city to find out the place late at night in melbourne, so i was really nervous. i knew that i was somewhere near my place, but i just can not find my way home, i spent at least 1 and a half hour to got back home

 

i do not think i would like go out with her anymore

 

am i bad to think things in this way?

 i feel guilty to think it this way

 

what shall i do?

 

God father, please forgive me to think it this way

please put more tolerance in my heart and make me love people here more

 

 

 

 

今天早上起来洗脸的时候总觉得怪怪的

 

仔细一看，额头上竟然长了两颗小痘

 

太过分了，我的脸上怎么可以长痘呢，这可是从来没有发生过的事情！

 

难道是因为澳洲的天气？？？

 

不行，要赶紧回国度假！！！

I think there might be sth wrong with me today.

 

i got up early and wanted to go to school

 

i took a tram instead of a train(i don't know why)

 

it was so slow and made me mad

 

half a hour later i decided to go back

 

i stayed at home for the rest of the day

 

i tried to sleep when it was 2pm

 

then the fire alarm was ringing for more than 10 mins

 

"fire alarm, pls stand still for further information" the alarm said with noise

 

i stood still for that ten mins, then the alarm off

 

i tried to sleep again

 

1 min later, the alarm was on again!!!!

 

i decided to go downstairs

 

when i finially made it

 

the manager told me it was a false alarm

 

i was scared and unhappy with that

 

i should have go to school

 

anyway, ruby is stuppppppppppppid

 

 

 

"good good study,  day   day   up"

 

 

 

我想我还小，因为我还有梦想

 

我想在25岁，完成墨尔本大学的学业之后，在罗马的教堂结婚

 

尽管不知道上帝创造的另一半现在在什么地方等我

 

我还想要有一个超过50平米的浴室，在里面度过一天最慵懒的时光

 

我的另外一个梦想，每天都可以更加接近理想的女性

 

努力生活，努力梦想，让自己和身边的人都开心和快乐

 

 

怀念厦大，想念曾经在身边帮助和支持过我的朋友

 

 

不知道从什么时候开始喜欢会弹钢琴的男生

 

 

驾驭琴键的潇洒，流淌指尖的旋律，总是能够打动我

 

想起之前一个朋友给写的歌

 

 

LIFE IS SWEET SORROW, LIFE IS JOYFUL, YET IT IS MISERABLE

 

TASTE OF THE BITTER, AND FEEL THE SOUR, WHAT COULD BE BETTER?

 

MORAL OF MORTAL AND PRIME OF CRIME INDIFFERENCES THE DIFFERENCE.

 

MAKE A WAVE OF THE FASHION, AND PAVE THE WAY OF THE HISTORY, THE CONTINUOUS CYCLE

 

HAIL TO LOVE AND PROMOTE FOR PEACE, WHAT ISPASSION OF ART WITH EMOTION OF HEART, THIS IS THE PART OF ACTION

 

PASS THE PAST ON THE PATH, VIEW THE FUTURE WITH A FEW; WHAT IS THERE TO SEE?

 

REGULATE THE IRREGULAR, AND RULE THE UNRULED, AND THAT WILL BE A FORM OF ALTERNATION.  

 THERE TO LIVE FOR.

PASSION OF ART WITH EMOTION OF HEART, THIS IS THE PART OF ACTION

 

PASS THE PAST ON THE PATH, VIEW THE FUTURE WITH A FEW; WHAT IS THERE TO SEE?

REGULATE THE IRREGULAR, AND RULE THE UNRULED, AND THAT WILL BE A FORM OF ALTERNATION.  

 

EXISTENCE OF ONE KIND WILL PRODUCE THE RESISTANCE OF ANOTHER, 

 

WHY BOTHER THE OTHERS?

 

STANDING ON THE TOP AND WAITING TO CLIMB UP, DON'T KNOW WHEN TO STOP

 

EXPECT THE WORST AND FIGHT FOR THE BEST, WHY TRY TO TEST?

 

I ASK MYSELF TO HIDE, WHERE THERE IS NO LIGHT; WHAT IS WRONG WITH LIFE?

I FANTASIZE THE PORT OF SOUL, BECAUSE I LIVE IN THE COURT OF LOW.

 

音乐不会改变

文字不会改变

但是人

一直在改变

LIFE IS SWEET SORROW

 

 

睁开眼睛

开始确定今天不会再有42度的高温

已经11点半了，还是凉风习习

 

早上，看到表妹QQ的个人陈述：“女人是不是注定要等待？”

第一次看她写这样的文字

 

在我的眼中，她永远都是个吵着要吃冰淇淋的小孩子

 

她问我：“姐，你说男人的外在因素重要吗，比如说家庭条件方面的？”

 

这个问题，其实很难有答案

 

我知道表妹不会在乎男友的家境，但问题是她的男友似乎不能不在乎

 

我想有志气的男人大多都会比较难以接受这样的事实

 

真心相爱的两个人，在那些酸葡萄的嘴里只能是，他看上的是表妹的家境

 

爱情究竟是由什么组成的？

 

对于男人外在条件是否重要的问题，我认为是重要的，但是家境并不属于个人的外在的组成部分

有好多可悲的人穷的就只剩下钱，何况家境并不是可以选择的

 

做什么样的人都可以，但是不能做穷得只剩下钱的人